Sharon's introduction to the film begins in a gray, lifeless purgatory: the tedium of her job as a telephone information operator (a task made obsolete today, which dates the movie somewhat). From there, we see her cruising the streets of Los Angeles with her swinger friend Vic in a decidedly predatory fashion, looking for couples to swap partners with. Even when they're successful (with David Duchovny as Randy and Stéphanie Menuez), we gets hints that she finds this unsatisfying.

Sharon's conversion seems abrupt when she throws Randy out of her bed so she can change the sheets and scrub the sin off of her in the shower, but it's been coming for some time. "I want my salvation," she says to him (note the possessive pronoun). "I'm tired of feeling empty all the time." Randy's arguments against her search for God are facile, juvenile, and unconvincing. Writer-director Tolkin then asks us, the viewers, to have faith in Sharon for the first time: after an abortive suicide attempt, Sharon drinks herself into a stupor and sees a vision of the Pearl, a sight only the truly devout would be granted. But is this a hallucination or a true vision? Are we supposed to believe that Sharon is granted this vision so soon after accepting Jesus Christ? Yes. Because the ending makes all this true.
Years later, after she's married Randy, had a daughter, and loses Randy to murder, she sees another vision: Randy telling her to go to the desert. Once again, we're supposed to have faith that this grief-stricken woman's visions are true and not a result of her questionable mental state. When she questions the nature and purpose of the vision, the Boy prophet tells her, "Don't ask God to meet you halfway," and this is where we get to the crux of the film: not only must you have faith, but it must be perfect faith. You have to go all the way. It's God's way or the highway.
Her pilgrimage to the desert with her daughter is fraught with petty humiliations, the kind that holy people aren't supposed to suffer. We cringe for her, even though her daughter Mary has the perfect faith that God demands. Convinced beyond any shadow of doubt that the Rapture is near, Mary doesn't want to wait for the world to end to go to Heaven. She wants to go to Heaven "the quick way." She wants to die. Sharon's faith admits some cracks when she says to her daughter, "Let's give God one more chance." This foreshadows the terrible choice she makes at the end of the film. In the throes of a heavenly vision (possibly brought on by hunger), Mary says to Sharon, "Don't ask God to meet you halfway," just like the Boy had.

And then the world ends. Gabriel's Trumpet sounds, literally shattering the walls of her prison cell. The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse ride out, terrible and frightening. We are told that everyone has until the seventh blast of Gabriel's Trumpet to accept God into their hearts if they want to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. They have to love God, and the clock is ticking.
Sharon refuses. Even when reunited with her pleading, angelic daughter in a Purgatorial space between Heaven and Hell, she will not love God. She has rejected Him. When she tells her daughter, "I love you," Mary replies, miserably, "That isn't enough." This is the terrible choice Sharon makes: to spend eternity in Purgatory rather than love a God that let her kill her daughter.
If we, the audience, kept faith the way Sharon did not, the apocalypse at the end of the film would not be surprising. All of the signs were there. You just have to believe what you're seeing.
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